Today, during one of my many stints on facebook, I noticed that Lindsey has a first (blind at that!) date with a friend of a friend. She's soo excited and nervous for it. She sent me pictures of him and man I would be too. Total hottie. :) I miss that feeling. The giddy, butterflies in the stomach, can't sit still, can't sleep, nervous, excited, first date feeling. Its been 5 years...FIVE YEARS since i've felt that. Its a one of a kind feeling that every girl knows.
When I met Brad, it was amazing. I was head over heels instantly and that feeling felt like it would never end. You pace the floor for hours before the date starts and you change your clothes a hundred times. Your hearts beating like its going to jump right out of your chest and you can feel it on your lips and hear it in your ears. Such an amazing, treasured feeling.
But for all that, I wouldn't trade a minute of what I have now. Every morning after work, I go home to bed, knowing that without so much as a word, I'll lay down and Brad will roll over, wrap his arm around me, kiss my temple and go back to sleep. Its comfortable. Familiar. Heaven.
At night when he comes home from work, he sits on the loveseat and I sit on the couch. We watch the news and share small conversation about notable things. Its nothing earth shattering. My heart isn't pounding out of my chest, but it definitely belongs to Brad. Sometimes he'll catch me staring at him, and he'll say, "what?" and I just laugh cause I don't know! I just am so in love that it seems like the most natural thing in the world to stare at him for hours on end.
I look at my grandparents, and how they are sooo comfortable together and in sync that there is little need to even talk. I always thought that would be horrible, but the more I think about it, the more I think its everything I want.
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