Generally as a rule, I'm not this gushy or lovey dovey over Brad, but since people don't read my blog, I'll keep spewing the love out, especially since Brad, work, and the wedding are the only things going on in my life right now.

For the greater portion of our relationship, I have pretty much assumed that things just were the way they were and neither Brad nor I was going to change and we would just have to accept that. Recently however, and I wish I knew what spurned it on, Brad and I have begun communicating a little more effectively. I'm trying to think of everything that has happened lately and here are the possible catalysts i have come up with: A few weeks ago we started pre-wedding couple to couple counseling. We pretty much had no choice but to communicate at that point, and I think maybe we both realized that, "hey this isn't so hard.." Also, Brad is going through some major financial/business decisions lately and I think us talking that out as a "husband & wife" rather than just boyfriend/girlfriend surprised, and excited both of us.

Granted we both are just as stubborn as always and we do have the same old fights, but at the same time, I feel more confident with approaching him about some things, rather than just burying it, which is good as we'll be married in 3 months time. :) I'm excited to discover that things can change and that we can still learn from and adapt to each other.

Supernationals

It's that time again. White trash, redneck hicks of the world unite! Ok thats not entirely fair, but it is somewhat accurate. Supernationals. Hobbystocks, Sport Mods, Stock Cars, and Modifieds from all over the country journey to Boone, IA to race for the coveted title of Supernationals Champion. It is the biggest, baddest, loudest, drunkest, funnest, naked-est white trash party ever established and for the most part, I'm proud to be a part of it (minus the nakedness). This however, is the first year since I've been going that I haven't been able to attend all week, due to the fact that I now have a full time job. Boo.

When I started this blog I thought I would try to capture the 'essence" of supernationals, but I'm beginning to realize how difficult that is going to be. I don't think you can fully appreciate the chaos of it, unless or until you see it. The day starts out with the drunk peeling themselves out from under a trailer, or out of a tent. Others arrive from whatever hotel or friend's place they were able to crash at. All the drivers complete the necessary things to race that day. Racing begins and its a parade of endless cars around the track vying for the top 2 spots in the heat that will get them into the A main where the top 2 spots from there get them in the championship race. Hundreds of people on the catwalk above the track, cheering on their favorite driver. At the end of the night, after all the spots for the day have been qualified for...the party begins. Four-wheelers, golf carts, and other various motor vehicles wheel around the pits with generally way too many passengers. Women stripping on trailers, men stripping on trailers...ahh its the life I tell you. :)

I believe Wednesday night when I was there, a girl looked at me, smiled, and held up a sign that said...and I quote, "Show us your tits!" Now, I'm not a prude or by any means, naive, but this caught me a little off guard. Had it been a man, I'm sure I would have been completely unsurprised, but this tiny little woman (hot, i might add) looked me up and down like i was a piece of meat and smiled at me like she wanted it. I politely smiled back and said, "Yeah..ain't happenin." :)

I'll be back tomorrow to watch Brad race in the championship race (Yay he qualified!) and I'll keep you posted as to the details! OR...come see for yourself! :)

Let It Go

Today I noticed on my photographer's blog that he had FINALLY posted our engagement pictures. I love them. There are so many little quirks present that completely represent who Brad and I are; however.. :) I'm extremely obsessive about pictures! Along with our pictures, he posted several other couples' sessions, and I can't help but notice some that are better than ours. Is that silly? Yes. But I can't help it! It's disappointing in a way. Mind you, I'm not disappointed with the photographer. I love his style, his patience, his creativity..lol it must be us! Apparently brad and I don't have very good photographic chemistry. Maybe I need to do more research, decide what it is exactly that I want, get some examples... I believe this is like my 3rd or 4th post on my engagement pictures, so I'm sure it seems nuts! But like I said, I can't help it. The wedding photos (other than the actual marrying brad) are THE most important thing to me for that day! I'll try to let it go and make this my last post on the subject, but I'm not making any promises.. :)