Wiped

Its Valentine's Day weekend and I'm spending the whole weekend at work. It wouldn't be so bad, but working nights, I sleep all day and then leave for work just as brad is getting home so I barely see him. As its the weekend he might be home earlier and I might get to see him more than I usually do on the nights I work, but working nights is really starting to become a drag. I'm totally wiped out all the time it feels like. I spend my days off trying to play catch up with laundry and housework and misc other stuff, that by the time I get done with that it barely feels like a day off! My mom always says, "welcome to the real world, Em" which is true. I'm sure everyone feels that way, but I can't explain the difference with working nights. Its so irregular.

I don't usually work 3 days in a row so I sleep the day of that I'm going to go into work. Then i work 12 hours and then I come home and sleep. Then if I have that night off, I have to try to sleep at night so I'm not sleeping that whole next day. So then I have that day off and I'm still tired cause I didn't sleep the best the night before because i'm all off on if I'm sleeping days/nights and then i crash at night and then I have to sleep all that next day because I go into work that night! LOL i'm sure that sounds completely confusing and ridiculous but thats my life!

You just never know if you're coming or going and its worse right now as its completely crazy busy at work. Its just run, run, run.

THE ONE thing I can say for working nights, is that I have learned to appreciate my bed in a way I NEVER have before. When its 0630 and I know that I'm going to be home in 30 minutes, I am literally SOOO excited to get to crawl into my bed. I mean I can not wait for it.

I'm hoping for a day job somewhere. The only thing is that almost everywhere you work, you start out on nights, so if I went somewhere else, I'd have to start all over again. And I don't know if I want to stay here... Oh decisions, decisions...