....or so they say. Must they, though? It seems that way sometimes. Take friendships for example. In grade and high school, friendships are you life blood. It nearly kills you to go hours without certain friends. You share all your special moments, your deepest secrets, your darkest fears, and your greatest dreams.
After we graduated we swore we would stay friends. Maybe that's not realistic. She went to her school, I went to mine. We talked and visited and it seemed like nothing had changed when we got together. Maybe the key word there is 'when'. Our visits got less frequent but still things felt just the same when we did. We graduated college and moved on to other ventures. We were bridesmaids in each other's weddings.
And if you asked me what happened, I wouldn't be able to pinpoint it. Last Christmas we were supposed to get together and at the last minute she cancelled on me with a pretty weak excuse. I of all people understand, so I let it go. I've been there. Then this week I heard she was coming back to Iowa. I texted and asked if she was coming and if she wanted to get together....nothing. No response. Maybe I did do something. It's possible. I think maybe its just one of those good things that came to an end.
I have a few friendships that match this scenario. Not word for word exactly, but same gist. It hurts and it makes me feel old, but then I suppose that's life. Through the wonders of social networking I share in their joys and triumphs, and maybe that's enough.
I worry that I don't have enough true friendships anymore. Family, lots. Casual friends, lots. But other than brad not many that I share everything with. That's mostly my fault. When I met brad, he became my world. My friends still meant a lot to me...perhaps I just took them for granted.
No one will ever mimic the bond we shared, but I do have the memories...and one small heart tattoo...that will last forever.
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