Words to Live By

I know you're probably so sick of Wedding. I can't help it. It's all thats going on in my life right now, other than work, and we're not allowed to blog, facebook, tweet, or write about work in any other form whatsoever, so wedding it is!

I just can't believe that it's already almost here. I JUST had my first nervous feeling. People have been asking me if I'm nervous, and thus far the answer has always genuinely been no, but it literally JUST hit me. I'm not even nervous about saying I do, or marrying brad, or the committment, or any of that. Its the WHOLE day. Its the fact that ALL day long, I'm the center of attention and while I'm a Leo and I'm supposed to be thrilled about the limelight, I'm not sure if I am. I know everything will work out and so I don't think its that, that worries me. I think a small part of it is that Brad gets nervous easily about those sort of things, and I'm nervous that he'll be nervous. I'm worried that he'll be upset about something or stressed or whatever. I know he hates public displays of affection, and I'm sure a part of the worry is that he won't be able to kiss me or hold my hand in public. I mean this is kind of the day where we are SUPPOSED to be doing those things. I don't know. I should at this point be content with who he is :) and for the most part I am. I'm not trying to change him. Just trying to analyze I guess.

Another small part of the nervousness is that I have no idea how many guests we will have. We sent out close to 500 invitations and we've gotten probably nearly 300 back. Soo what about the other 200 then? Does that mean they're not coming? That they are? I don't know! I'm not even worried about it for the caterer or the alcohol or the seating or any of that. I'm just curious as to how many people will be there. What if no one comes to my wedding. I mean how mortifying if my wedding and reception are completely dead. Thats a little bit of a worry. Probably not a justified one, but present, all the same.

I'm ready for the day to be here. I'm ready to celebrate and be married and begin our lives together! :)